long time. no. far too long, far too long to go without telling someone how I feel. It was the 4th January when I last posted anything on here, and it is now the 23rd March. i’ve just realised that that’s only just over 2 months, and it sounds so cliche but so much truely has happened. So much infact, that i do not know where to begin..
How about I start with 2nd January, something I forgot to mention. I no longer speak to Chase. My friend has gone, and been replaced with this huge gaping hole. Hayley doesn’t like how much he talks to me, therefore i don’t get i no longer get that talking time with him. Understandable, yet clearly i am still upset. It’s normal to be upset when you loose a friend isn’t it? And I have lost a friend, because I can’t turn to him at all anymore, not for anything. And yes, i am all cut up inside because of it. And yes, I do miss him like crazy. And yes, I am tired of thinking about it. But life goes on, correct?
But closing one door opens another. Correct! Spet is my new open door. Liam Spets is a boy in my year. I have always been friends with him, and I have always been quite close to him. But recently I have become his best friend and he has become a very loved friend to me as well! Spet is a lad that I never really used to have the time of day for, just took him as your usual player but now he’s changed. He’s been with his girlfriend for half a year now and she really has changed him. This is usually used as a bad expression. But I mean it in the most amazing way possible. She is such a nice girl and she’s brought out the great lad in him! His mum was going in for an operation and he was talking to me about it, and I tried to be there for him and told him not too worry which I know he will because I worried as well when my mum had an operation and after all his mum was fine just like my mum was. And he thanked me, and was so nice to me. He told me that if I ever needed a hug or just someone to talk to, then he would always be there for me. And I know he means it! I have just seen him, and I wasn’t sure that it was him, so i rang him and he answered and told him to turn around. He came over and gave me teo of the biggest hugs ever bless him! He really has become one of the best people i know!
And turning back about a years worth of pages in history. Kami and Jai got together, and are now finished completely. And i really do doubt that they will ever start all that again. And the best thing about all of it, is that I don’t wat Jai like I used to. Just as a friend, which I have missed! Although there are moments when I think about him, I hadn’t had one of these moments in about 6 months until I went to the cinema. And in the film I was watching, one man said to another ”What’s your secret to your happy marriage?” to which the man answered; ”It’s simple, I married my best friend.” Now that set my mind turning, but it didn’t turn for long. I think that was just a little bell ringing to say ‘you’ll never fully forget, but when you come accross a moment that makes you remember, you wont remember for long.
This also may come as a shock, but Tori and I have become closer recently. Yes life really is full of surprises. She’s openned up to me a lot more recently, and I’ve opened up to her a lot about Joe.
Joe? Who’s that, well I did mention him breifly once, but he is exactly that. Breif. One week of non stop seeing each other, and non stop messing around together and non stop laughing and not stop time together. Followed by a week of no seeing eachother, no time laughing together and deffinately no messing about together. Now I don’t know what he is doing, and I think i’m deciding to forget about him.
All I wanted at first was a bit of attention from someone I guess. And i got it, but now it’s messing up and I don’t want it. Maybe attention is only good in small doses? But my schoolwork is important at the moment and I’m going to sound like my mother when I say this, but for right now. I need to screw my head on and line everythign up. Basically get my priorities in order.
Oh yeah, I don’t want Aston. But he’s still the same nice lad! :)
A new and improved/changed/different alice dale?
